On my tenth birthday, my family's home burned down and we were forced to move in with an aunt and uncle of mine. I had sleepovers at cousins' houses, playdates with my friends, and weekends with my grandparents. My siblings and I bounced around while my parents sorted through the wreckage and tried to make sense of it all.
I don't blame anyone for making me this way, but I can definitely understand how our circumstances caused me to become a woman with an outrageous type A, give-me-a-long-term-plan, status quo, attitude. Change will always be hard because it reminds me of a time when I was forced to change. It no longer feels like a choice to me.
What I've found, though, is that things always change when we have the least control over it. Some plans just don't work out. Some friendships just fade away. Some things just aren't meant to be. Situations change, we change, and eventually we are not who we used to be. Things are different... And that's okay.
I wish there were some easy way for me to turn into a free-spirited girl without a care in the world. I wish I could adapt to change easier and not hold onto the past so much. Unfortunately, wishing those things isn't going to make a change. The switch happens when I make a choice to let change in. It happens when I choose to embrace it.
People will leave.
Situations will change.
I will grow.
It's inevitable and it's BEAUTIFUL.
Ecclesiastes 3:1 says,
"There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the Heavens...
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace."
I'm thankful Jesus knows what I need, when I need it, and where He'll meet me. He's always saving us like that, you know. There's no way He'll ever let us down because when things change, He only ever stays the same.
14 comments:
Change can definitely be hard to deal with, but I can promise you that it will always make you grow. With faith like yours, you can weather ANY change girl! XOXO
I hate change as well. But, I have learned to embrace it and accept it. It's always difficult, though.
I think as I've gotten older my free-spirit nature has changed, too. I hate being so uptight about everything, especially the littlest changes in my life. Thanks for the reminder that everything (no matter what) will be OKAY!
I wish I could be that "free spirited hippie" girl, who just goes with the flow (especially with guys) but I'm learning to just completely trust God and his plan.. he always delivers!
We are so much alike in some ways, it amazes me! I feel the same way you do about this. I love how you always help me to see the "other side of things!" Love you lady!
I'm not a fan of change either, and I'm much more comfortable when I know what the plans are :)
I hate change as well - but mostly changes are blessings in disguise. Like you, I continue to battle with needing to know the plan for EVERYTHING and knowing when to let go and enjoy the ride.
I feel ya, change is so hard for me too. I love when things are constant and reliable.
change is very very hard for me too, i can't put my finger on why but its just so tough.
I have always been one to avoid change if at all possible. New things that excite some people tend to terrify me. My anxiety spikes & it's not a good time. Then there's my fiance who can just relax and roll with anything and it is the quality I am most jealous of. I'm trying to learn not to obsess and stress over things, but it's nearly impossible!
Jamie @
The Growing Up Diaries
Change is something that no one enjoys. Hugs friend!
Loooove that scripture!
We might have already talked about this, but my house burned down too! When I was 14. Jesus teaches me so much looking back on that time.
Love you sweet girl!
I needed to read this today. You always bless me with your words.